I am a dreamer, a hopeful and ever-ready to take on what life throws at me. At least, that is how I like to see myself. At the moment I am not quite there.
I am in a bit of a darker space where life feels like trudging through some muddy swamp and everything is an effort. I know it will lift, everything passes, but I’m holding a stopwatch to my heart – awaiting the time for change. What I realise today is that the only catalyst for change that I have lies within me and I need to dig deep to live the life I dream of.
I have recently embarked on a new life path. It scares me. It excites me. It leaves me shuddering… and tingling at the same time. I am newly embarking on the road to recovery, taking the first few trembling steps and what I am finding is that support, and love, abound in my life. There are people who surround me who love me regardless of the messes I have made. People who believe in me and who are willing to stand by me. This is a small miracle, and I am ever grateful.
I draw inspiration from them to keep putting each foot forward, and without this circle I may have collapsed by now. It’s not that I feel worthy of this kindness, but I do see it and it propels me. Keeps me going.
This is a bit of a ramble to open up this new found venture, but there you are.
Enjoy. Smile at the silliness. Read on. There is more to come from this.